Recently, like a true millennial I have been riddled with anxiety and second guessed basically every move i’ve made in my not so distant past. I have not posted on my website in 3 years despite having much to say. Its like taking the leap to actually starting a path is the scariest thing in the world because the feeling of inadequacy can be all consuming. So, here is me throwing caution to the wind. Nothing will ever be perfect but the road to trying can be fun, no?
As a career move I have thrown myself into the art of Sommelier. As the title of my website may indicate liquor (wine) has always been a huge part of my life. So recently I got my ‘Professionel de Vin’ certificate and I decided to make use of it. Turns out I have pretty decent taste buds despite my smoking. You know how 27 can be a crucial time of your life? I mean heck we created a whole club around it because I think its the year you either make it or the drugs, booze and depression get ya. It was a year of radical changes for me. I quit both my jobs that I had held for 2 and 4 years respectively and threw myself in a new restaurant. I also ended the longest relationship I’ve ever held of almost three years. Something inside me realized I have enough internalized anxiety on my own and any external anxiety added to my life is not going to be accepted by me any longer. I will no longer have other people put their baggage on me and pretend its ok and call it friendship or love.
The new chapter resulted in me working for a renowned restaurant group in Montreal. I applied because this group has amazing connections at overseas vineyards. The wine list is excellent and this allows me to practice talking and describing wines, a skill which I had started losing since I worked from home. I have to look to the future because a job like this is stressful, specifically the environment and the constant pressure from my superiors. I aim to know everything there is to know of the wine list to bolster myself, protect myself and achieve better things within this industry. I also simply love wine plain and simple, wine allows you to travel the world and history through a bottle.
I think my goal going forward is to be sure that I’m being kind to myself. To not let the little comments from other people get to me, this industry is tough and I cannot allow myself to get defensive when someone else’s insecurity comes in the form of constant criticism of others. Sometimes the criticism is useful. Other times its simply constant pestering, likely to overshadow their own feeling on inadequacy. I think the key for myself is understanding which one is which, so I don’t feel like a dung beetle constantly pushing shit uphill.
Anywho, Ciao for now!
Life, Liquor and Liabilities 